november 8

so im giving what young life likes to call the cross talk in a mere month away... i've already been thinking about it and what i want to say. well going along with thinking about the cross 24/7 and being on a needtobreathe kick lately, my heart is.....thankful. i dont even know if thats the word.. maybe precious? i don't know. listen to 'learn to love' by needtobreathe then read the crucifiction and let me know how you feel. maybe there isnt a word for it. or maybe i cant put into just one word what jesus is doing through this talk already.

a phrase i've recently come up with to sum up the cross, "jesus had to drown is our sin, so that we can breathe in His life-giving freedom." quote me on that. i've stayed up most nights thinking about it. and what this truly means.

i dont know about you, but i have grown numb to hearing the crucifiction. i dont even shudder anymore. maybe thats why i'm thinking about this talk so far in advance. i want to feel it in my soul. i want to breakdown in tears for this jesus of mine. i dont want to just go through the motions of hearing it and reading it. i want to be rocked to my core everytime.

a story a young life friend shared with me at summer staff two summers ago that i will never forget:
i was sitting in the audience of a young life club during the cross talk, when a capernaum girl (our friends with disabilities) got up and had to excuse herself. naturally she followed her to make sure everything was okay. she asked why she had to get up and leave. the girl responded, "it's too sad! why did he have to die? he didnt deserve it. it's too sad!" all while sobbing uncontrollably.

so if you would, pray for my high school friends, and that this talk wont be a normal story they've heard a million times. and pray that i dont brush it off as a story. this was his life. and in result, MY life.