memory lane

ITS BEEN A YEAR SINCE THIS WHOLE ADVENTURE HAS BEGUN!!!

crazy.
that's crazy.


It was exactly this time last year I wrote my very first post during the superbowl. GreenBay wassup. What a year. ITS BEEN A YEAR!!!?!? WHAT?!


I was going to write a blog like this at the beginning of the new year, but I decided it wasn't really fitting. Who knows why, I just never felt the words come out right.. Speaking of the words coming out right, I apologize if I was too harsh in my last post. I still feel uneasy about it, but I don't regret it enough to take it down. Love is sacred. And that's all I was trying to convey, give or take a little.

Anyway, one year! I've come so far, yet still have so far to go! It so weird to picture where I was a year ago. Physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.

1) I was in my dorm room with kaitlyn cross, and ellie webb. I was trying to figure out if I had just become a pretentious hipster by creating a blog. (I definitely haven't) We were "watching" the super bowl and I think I remember something about a snow day... I don't think snowpacalypse had happened yet... Maybe. Who knows.

2) I was wanting to get back to texas for a boy. HA! It's not one of those "I can't believe I liked him" situations, its a "I AM SO NOT READY FOR ANY TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP RIGHT NOW" type of situation. Great guy. But boy, am I not ready for that. I am so not ready for someone to answer to, which is not how I think a relationship is going to be, BUT I'm young. I'm wild. I'm free. okay, just kidding about the wild and free. But really... At the end of the day I'm happy to be with my best friends. Sure, there are times (LIKE LAST WEEK) that I was upset with my current standings, but its what is right. Even if I go to bed at the end of the day, thinking God must have made a mistake somewhere along my path, I know in the back of my mind I'm so thankful for this. I am so thankful for college with my friends. Life to the full. No regrets.

3) I wasn't a young life leader! My my my how my priorities have changed. I would rather spend my lunches at FHS than anywhere else. I would rather spend a majority of my free time seeking high schoolers that probably think I'm crazy because I want to hang out with them.. In reality theyre cooler than a lot of people I know. I wouldnt trade anything for my thursday nights of craziness with or without a USB cord in my hair, or screeching like a pteordactyl. Life to the full.

4) I was no where near where I am with the Lord. So much growth and forgiveness, and the removal of bitterness has taken place since last february. THANK YOU. It's a daily process, for sure, but I am getting places. Great places. I'm currently doing a bible study with a ton of YL girls called "Breaking Free" by Beth Moore (AKA WHO I STRIVE TO BECOME IN THIS LIFE) and I am so excited. We are about to start week 3 and I can't wait to see what happens this semester. Freedom. It's coming to my heart. I can't wait.

5) I had no idea what I wanted to do in this life! I had no idea what I wanted to major in, or what to do after college. I still dont know what I want to do after college, but that's pretty far off. However, I am majoring in something I love. Fashion. It's dumb, and easy smeasy, but I love it. And whether the rest of the world wants to admit it, fashion is apart of our daily lives. Whether you strive to be fashionable or not, you do wake up in the morning and put articles of clothing on. Someone somewhere had to have the idea, then designed it; someone bought hundreds of them to put into a department store, and then YOU drove your little self to said store and bought it. You're welcome.


I've been there.
I've been here.
I wouldn't trade anything for the world.


His plan is perfect.